I see the stars still shine
And the moon still hangs
I see the blue skies
And the Sunshine
Why didn't you tell me that the hurt would never go away?

I see the seas still rise
And the tide comes in
I see the harbors still full
And the docks still float
Why didn't you tell me that the hurt would never go away?

I see my life moving forward
And adventures anew
I see paths never taken
And destinations unknown
Why didn't you tell me that the hurt would never go away?

I feel the distance ever growing
And the familiar fading away
I see new faces where we used to stand
And I miss you

8-16-11


(note: Found this in the list of posts still listed as draft.  Seems okay to post it now...)

Still Twisting by the Pool...

Yeah.  So I get asked a lot of questions sometimes about Polyamory.  This is not so much a surprise to me, since this really does fall far beyond the boundaries of what people consider 'normal', but sometimes the questions seem more like punctuated statements than questions.  I got a peach of one today.

"So why do this?  Just to prove to yourself that it can be done?"

(I'll leave the byline off, since that's not important, but I will grant full credit if the questioner would like it...)

Good one, huh? So where do I begin?

• I do this, I love like this, because I can.  
• I love like this because it is rewarding and beautiful to those who understand and appreciate the choices. 
• I love like this because I can bring love to more than just a single soul.  
• I love like this because I can lift others up without feeling guilty that I am letting anyone else down.  
• I love like this because there are beautiful souls needing to be cared for, appreciated, and loved.  I have enough love to go around, nobody I care for is getting slighted, and it feels damned good to do it.  
• I love like this because love is one of those wonderful elements that you end up with more of if you keep giving it away.  
• I love like this because, well, because I choose to.  The people I am involved with get complete honesty from me about what is going on, and I get complete honesty from them just the same.  It's difficult at times, but there are hurdles in every relationship, and honestly, it just feels right.  
• I love like this because I think it's a beautiful thing. 

As I have said before, it certainly isn't for everyone, and the hurdles can seem insurmountable when viewed from the perspective of a traditional relationship, but they can be bested with work and love, love, love. Not forcing anything helps greatly, as well (It's a very difficult thing to try and fit a puzzle together if the Polaroid has not yet fully developed yet), and making sure that each person gets what is important to them whenever possible goes miles towards showing their importance. 

In the end, it takes patience, understanding, and maybe a little bit of luck in finding the right combination of people, circumstances, and emotional desire to make it work best.  

And I am feeling very, very lucky.  

<3 <3

My dear Gina said something about how I love today that made me smile an awful lot. She said, "Most people will walk past that tiny little flower growing in a crack of the sidewalk and never even notice it at all.  You stop, lift it up, admire it's beauty, it's tenacious spirit, tell it how perfect an example to others it is, and point it out to the rest of the world.  You let that flower shine to all others."

I was totally flattered by this, of course, but I accept that I TRY to do this for people.  I TRY to make them feel as important as they deserve to feel.  Isn't that worth doing?  Isn't that what we should all try to do for others?  

Love each other.  It's important. 

Wordsmith

The brass'd clock thrice turned in endless glory
When at last time in march began to sing
Two voices, harmony, tell a story
Unexpectedly love blooms in the Spring

As the Western sky calls the heart away
From the comforts of the unrealized home
To begin anew and live for today
Learn'd from tenderness one's ne'er alone

With hope in the guise of newly found joy
Eyes opened to possibilities new
Spoke in the dark with a whispering voice
Deep into her scented hair "I Love You"

You taught me to love as free as a bird
You changed my life with that magical word

Shortly After

Countless stars in the sky with names unknown

There are mountains mysterious and lost

Wonders my eyes will not ever be shown

But I will love you no matter the cost

Fathoms beneath the tumultuous Sea

Miles above in the Heavens so fair

I embrace your heart. kind, caring, and free

And encourage you to be brave and dare

A beauty beyond a mere mortal gleam

Cloudless skies no comparative measure 

Brighter than church bells pealed loudly in dreams

Her bright smile a grandiose pleasure

Impossible for these words to capture

My amazing love brings me to rapture 

Illusion

Red in the sky
Heart on the ground
Hands held in love
To those I have bound

Kisses from lips
A tender sweet touch
Joys in my heart
I love them so much

Watching the sky
For a shooting star
Warm in the eyes
Of love near and far

The black bird beholds
A Dryad in green
A Star from the sky
Things are more than they seem

Scraps

The raven scanned the ground below for the gift he'd long-ago lost.  It seemed like a lifetime since he'd seen it, that beautiful gift that he meant to give to her.  But it was gone. Lost forever in the thickly-wooded places where he'd hidden his heart.  Probably for the best, anyway. She'd burned their hideaway, smashing every window with  a hammer before lighting the fire herself. He sat quietly on the familiar branch, looking down at the bare patch that used to be the yard in which he'd hidden treasures.  He jumped from branch to branch, settled in on the familiar places, and tried to remember the place he'd called home.  Then he saw them, flitting in the wind, caught in the pine boughs high up off the ground.  He leapt, half-flying to them, and gathered one up in his beak.  Tears welled in his eyes as he took wing and soared away, a tattered plum scrap helping him remember the night sky...

Life is Good

I saw the stars and heard the angels
While I waited for a sign
I felt the brush and hoped again
For a chance that she'd be mine

Weaving through a Summer's day
Or dancing in the snow
My heart it leapt and sung aloud
When again her smile glowed

Those beaming eyes, those ruby lips
Waiting for the day
When we could again just be in love
Somehow, Somewhere, Some way

Love then old, now new again
We knew that we would try
And as we laughed at hidden jokes
We agree that we gotta fly

<3 You